I've never felt like this
not quite, even
void of all emotion
I do feel empty...but at the same time
I feel it all
sadness, panic, fear, rejection, uselessness
every fucking thing and I don't like it
feel like crying, but at the same time I can't
makes me wanna scratch my brain out
I want to feel nothing at all
will I get that when I'm dead?
is death the solution?
but I can't
I'm holding onto that, it's all I can do
what if I don't make it?